Thursday, February 10, 2005

I wish I were sleeping...


Our pup, Skittle Posted by Hello

Hi. Well, joy.. it's 2:00a.m. and I'm wide awake. Maybe this is God's way of preparing me for motherhood--getting up every 2 hours to feed the baby. I think Sam's waking me up now with his kicking, too. Poor Greg. This is the third day in a row that I've had to go sleep on the couch due to sleeplessness. It probably doesn't help to have as much overactive imagination as I have.

I'm doing better as far as not being terrified of childbirth today. Who knows, maybe it'll be a breeze in comparison to what I'm expecting it to be. What frustrates me is the simple fact that you can't ever be prepared for anything, no matter how much you try to psych yourself up for it; nor can you anticipate how difficult something will, or will not be. I guess it seriously just comes down to trusting God that he's going to get me through this. Sooo.. hard sometimes.

Saw a fantabulous movie today. Greg and I don't have t.v. anymore, so we hadn't seen anything on Napoleon Dynamite. We LOVED it. One of the coolest things, though, was two of our bestest loved songs were on there. I'm hoping it wasn't because of their "cheese" factor, because we actually take them seriously and call them "our songs." They are "Forever Young" by Alphaville and "I Promise" by Modern English. When both of them were played, we both started yelling things like "Hey!" and "Holy Toledo!" The best part of the movie itself, for me, was that the characters were extreme, but not so extreme that I couldn't relate to them or say to myself, "That reminds me and people I know, somehow" I really liked the main girl, Deb. She was someone I probably would have been friends with in high school. Was she the little kid from "Water World?" Or was I just halucinating? Yay for fun movies!

2 comments:

Raquelita said...

Let me just say this is so way better than e-mailing. I forwarded your e-mail to my mother and asked her to send you any childbearing advice she has lying around...Wish I could be there when the baby's born! Funny, I have never in my life wanted to be in the room when someone has a baby, but I guess heart's change when it comes to best friends. Gosh, I'm getting teary eyed now...I cry so easily anymore. I am SSSSSOOOOOOOOOOOOOO happy for you and Greg! And yea for me for encouraging the match. =) Yes, all of this is typed on European keyboards. I'm quite used to it now, though sometimes when I reread something I've typed on this keyboard I see a lot of syntactical, grammatical, or spelling errors that I can directly relate to the French language. Is't bizarre; French keyboard, French language. When I type an e-mail using my laptop the errors are not the same...

This is verbose. I'll end here. I love you! Oh yeah, returning sometime in July...by then you'll be Mommy Kuld!

pregnancyweekly said...

I totally understand that as much as you can be prepared...you can't be prepared! It's a scary thought for sure. But quickly you become an old pro. I think what really made the impression that I truly was a mom was when my kiddo#1 was passed around from family member to family member and he would cry and cry and then I held him and he immediately was fine. It was a good sign that I was doing okay as a mom. :)

Congrats and best of luck to you!